[00:00.410]You a should song write where the concept is,
[00:03.930]You're basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
[00:08.980]To your mother, when she was your age
[00:14.420]I don't know
[00:16.220]Maybe I would write you a happy ending
[00:18.780]I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
[00:22.040]I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
[00:26.210]And let you experience all the ways that happiness
[00:29.520]could bloom before you
[00:31.570]Or maybe I'm nave,
[00:34.210]Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
[00:37.060]It would somehow grow inside you
[00:38.890]Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
[00:41.180]But reality is that, where life could never be provisioned
[00:43.870]But if I could wish for one thing, I'd go back and I'd fix it
[00:46.510]I'd tackle all your obstacles and kill them with precision
[00:49.270]And better the intentions of every single person
[00:51.920]Who play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
[00:54.720]I'd shower you with purpose, I'd wipe hate off the surface
[00:57.470]I'd reshape all your pain and make it worth *********
[01:00.670]No more feeling worthless, no more ******* searching
[01:03.000]No more of that fraud ****, nobody else could hurt you
[01:05.700]Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
[01:08.650]And if they ever tried too I'd wipe 'em from the Earth too
[01:11.300]Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
[01:14.040]I know that you been running from everything that's behind you
[01:16.690]I know that you've been burying everything deep inside you
[01:19.390]I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
[01:22.280]But I'm stuck sitting in this time frame
[01:24.930]Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
[01:27.590]One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
[01:30.330]Maybe we could change ****, no more inclement weather
[01:33.080]Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
[01:35.770]You were just like me, wish that you had more time
[01:38.520]To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
[01:41.380]Wouldn't lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger
[01:44.270]Everything is different now, nothing is the same
[01:46.510]And nowadays I swear it feels like you don't know my name
[01:49.370]But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
[01:52.010]I'm you in every way, every hue and every shade
[01:54.820]And maybe you should know, it's the last thing that I wanted
[01:57.560]Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I'm haunted
[02:00.210]And I don't wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
[02:02.860]So I'm just gonna confront it, yeah I'm just gonna confront it
[02:05.660]And tell you I love that you for everything you made me
[02:08.970]And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
[02:11.160]God lives inside you, you've already found him
[02:13.850]The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
[02:16.560]And I despise your church for every ******* thing taught youthey
[02:19.500]It's just a ******* stain that I wish I could wipe off you
[02:22.060]That I wish I could wipe off you
[02:24.900]And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
[02:28.870]Everything that it cost you
[02:30.300]Fame is such a heavy price I wish it didn't cost you
[02:33.240]Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
[02:35.790]Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
[02:38.430]Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
[02:40.880]Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
[02:44.080]Now I realize that **** is the alternative outcome
[02:46.610]Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
[02:49.360]I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
[02:52.060]I just wish you knew that you could never make it without love
[02:54.800]For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
[03:00.100]Cuz I would help you find you
[03:03.090]And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
[03:07.010]And if that meant the end of me
[03:08.750]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy end and peace
[03:12.620]Because, you are such a special thing
[03:15.310]You're not just my mom, but you're the reason I exist
[03:18.720]And the best life that you could've had for yourself
[03:22.040]without making a mistake
[03:23.470]Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
[03:25.510]And even though my childhood wasn't perfect and I still love you
[03:28.710]I just want to know you that if I could go back do one thing for you
[03:34.920]I would be person for one you
[03:37.510]I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that
[03:38.640]you could've had a nicer life
[03:39.150]And a nicer childhood, that you know
[03:41.430]You would not have made the mistakes that put us all
[03:43.570]in this bad situation
[03:44.890]And not have the stress to leave
[03:46.630]But just so that you would have been happier and stronger
[03:49.830]Even if I didn't exist, even it meant that I was never born
[03:53.310]That's what I would have wanted for you
[03:55.640]Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
[03:57.740]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
[04:00.330]Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
[04:03.140]I know you've been running from everything that's behind you
[04:05.730]I know that you've been burying everything deep inside you
[04:08.490]I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
[04:11.580]And if that meant the end of me
[04:14.030]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
[04:18.060]And if that meant the end of me
[04:19.590]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
[04:23.910]And if that meant the end of me
[04:25.080]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
[04:28.940]I don't know
[04:32.550]Maybe I would write you a happy ending
[04:35.040]I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
[04:37.630]I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
[04:42.460]And let you experience all the ways that happiness
[04:45.780]could bloom before you
[04:47.910]Or maybe I'm nave,
[04:49.940]Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
[04:53.760]It would somehow grow inside you
[04:55.590]And that I could hide you from the rain
[04:57.420]So that it could be easier for happiness to find you
[05:01.750]Or still a maybe kid I'm who's caught in a dream
[05:05.150]I'm the heir to the throne of a princess
[05:07.240]who's still trying to be queen
[05:10.340]Or maybe we're all just caught in the a massacrewinds of
[05:14.210]The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias