Don't Know Anymore - Central Cee TME享有本翻译作品的著作权 Lyrics by：Central Cee/Lily Kaplan/Mathias Liyew Composed by：Central Cee/Lily Kaplan/Mathias Liyew Produced by：Ambezza/Lily Kaplan To get to my current position 为了达到我当今的地位 I done more than 10000 hours 我付出了超过一万小时的努力 Dreamt that I saw my name on a gravestone 曾梦想把名字刻在墓碑上 Maybe then they would give me my flowers 或许那个时候才会有人给我献花 Mum put 3 of her boys in the tub same time 妈妈曾经一次为三个儿子洗澡 Cah we couldn't afford to shower 因为我们没钱出去洗淋浴 Before man snaked me I already saw it coming 在遭人背叛之前 我就已经预感到 I saw they were sour 我看出他们心怀不满 But now it's my time to experience fame 但现在轮到我功成名就 The opps tryna find out where am I staying 对手们想方设法打探我的住处 My girl don't believe anything I'm saying 我的女孩根本不相信我说的话 My family need anything I'm paying 我会满足家人所有的需求 Sat down telling a therapist stories 我坐下来 跟心理医生倾诉往事 I know she ain't gonna relate 我知道她无法感同身受 What's this? What's that? 这是什么 那又是什么 I don't care to explain 我懒得解释 I'll deal with grief and bearing the pain 我会面对悲伤 承受痛苦 I don't paint these girls in a positive way 我不会把这些女孩当做好人 You can tell that my heart's been broken before 你能看出来 我的心曾被伤透 Tryna heal but it's taking time 试图治愈内心 但这需要时间 What's the point in life? 生活究竟有什么意义 I don't know anymore 我已不再知道 Tell the young boys stay in school 我要告诉年轻的男孩们要继续求学 But I wouldn't be here if I followed the law 但如果我循规蹈矩 就不会有现在的成就 I keep making dumb decisions like I don't have control of my thoughts 我总是做出愚蠢的决定 好像无法控制自己的思想 The guys wouldn't know that I'm feeling like this 那些家伙不会明白我内心的感受 'Cause I conceal and hide it 因为我把情绪都藏了起来 Everyone's there on the weekend vibing 所有人都在尽情享受周末时光 Nobody's there when I need consignment 当我需要抚慰的时候 身边却空无一人 I heard the quote that the strong survive 我听说过强者生存这句话 But I still got a fear of us dying 但我依然害怕死亡 Some nights still toss and turn in my sleep 有些夜晚 我会在睡梦中辗转反侧 Cah I seen some serious violence 因为我见过太多的暴力事件 I was 6 years old when dad left home and they shot my grandad 我六岁 父亲离家 爷爷被人枪杀 All of that at once 祸不单行 My lil bro's still going to school 我的弟弟还在上学 But he wanna do everything that the gang does 但他却想当个帮派成员 Now he's repeating the cycle 现在他重蹈覆辙 Cah he's outside and he wanna go act up 因为他总在外面惹是生非 Got sick of the carton milk 我喝腻了盒装牛奶 It was free school meals we never had pack lunch 学校的免费午餐只有这些 我们从没有自带午餐 Cutting the mould of the loaf of bread 切掉面包上的霉斑 And I looked in the fridge and the milk expired 打开冰箱 发现牛奶也过期了 All of the mandem jumped in the trap 所有人都在泥潭中挣扎 Cah we put on The Wire and got inspired 我们受到了火线的影响 Not surprised when I see man lying 看到有人撒谎 我并不感到惊讶 It's fine I already clocked they're liars 没关系 我早就看透他们是骗子 I just saw a cat that I know whilst driving 当我开车遇到熟人的时候 I might park up on the block say hi 我会把车停好 跟他打个招呼 Mum's house banging out Beanie Sigel 妈妈家里播放着比尼·西格尔的歌 I still don't feel much love in the air 但我依然感受不到什么爱意 Lost faith in God 'cause I thought I was cursed 我不再信仰上帝 因为我觉得自己受到了诅咒 Kept it to myself cah none of them cared 我把这些想法藏在心里 因为没人在乎 Telling my baby 告诉我的宝贝 \"Wait I don't know how long it will it take I'm gonna repair 等一下 我不知道这要多久 我会努力弥补 If it all falls down would you bounce? 如果一切都崩塌了 你会离开吗 If none of the tours sold out are you gonna be there?\" 如果我的巡演不卖座 你会留下来吗 There's a few times I lost faith in music 有几次我对音乐失去了信心 I put out a tune and it didn't get views 我发布了一首歌 但却无人在意 Me and my broski went and came up with a plan back then 那个时候 我和兄弟们一起制定了一个计划 But it didn't go through 但最终没有成功 You know that **** that you say when you're broke 你知道 当你在穷困潦倒的时候 说的那些话 Like \"When I get dough I'ma bring in you too\" 比如 等我有钱了 我会拉你一把 Then I blew up and reality hit 然后我突然走红 让我看清了现实 **** now I gotta think this through 现在我要好好考虑这些事情了 Three little brothers 我有三个弟弟 Mum's 40 and still ain't paid off her student loan 妈妈四十岁了 学生贷款还没还清 My dad can't move he's ****** paralysed 我的爸爸瘫痪了 无法行动 Just went through some serious stroke 刚刚经历了严重的中风 The mandem calling me 朋友给我打电话 YG's warning me YG警告我 Saying that I gotta leave home 说我要离开家 I get more money more problems now 我赚的钱越多 面临的问题也越多 I had less to worry 'bout when I was broke 没钱的时候反而没这么多烦恼 Remember I had one pair of Air Forces 还记得我曾拥有过一双空军一号 Tryna keep out the creases 我小心翼翼地避免弄出褶皱 Now the front drive look like it's a showroom 现在我家门前的车道 就像是汽车展厅 And none of them leases 而且没有一辆是租来的 I'm extremely grateful for all my people 我非常感激身边的所有人 Cah none of them leeches 因为他们都不是寄生虫 I dropped a tape got a billion streams 我发布了一张混音带 播放量达到了十亿次 And none of them even features 里面没有任何客串歌手 Now my bredrin dissed me tryna go viral 现在我的兄弟为了出名诋毁我 'Cause he ain't blown yet 因为他还没走红 How is that my fault? 这怎么能怪我呢 I thought you was Christian 我本以为你是个基督徒 Why don't you move like Mathew Phillip disciple 你为什么不像马太 腓力这些门徒一样行事呢 But you wanna snake man move like Judas 你就像犹大一样背叛我 'Cause you ain't blew it's ****** vio 因为你还没走红 这太荒谬了 And we're in London bare opportunity 我们在伦敦 有很多机会 It's not like we live in Ohio 又不是生活在俄亥俄州 I booked hotels and flights to all of these shows 我预订酒店和机票去参加各种演出 And brought you to all of these countries 还带你去了很多国家 Say thank you and pretend that you're grateful 嘴上说着谢谢 貌似你很感激 But when I turn man's back say **** me 当我一转身 你就说我坏话 Whole six months living at your mum's 我曾在你妈妈家住过六个月 We was with big bro on our own it was us three 我们和大哥在一起 只有我们三个人 Shouldn't ever bite the hand that feeds you 永远不要恩将仇报 I leave man starving cah you're too hungry 我让你衣食无忧 可你却太贪婪 I said that I got you but you didn't trust me 我说过我会支持你 可你却不信任我 I would've but you didn't give me the chance 我本可以做到 但你没给我机会 You can ask anyone of the mandem now if I ever left them in the dark 你可以去问任何人 我是否会抛弃他们 Whatever's meant to be will be 一切都是命中注定 I can't turn back time or dwell on the past 我不能让时光倒流 也不能一直沉浸在过去 But I sometimes wonder 但我有时会想 Could have I got this far without losing my dargs? 如果没有失去那些挚友 我还能走到今天这一步吗